tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-72321542608174235132024-03-14T03:57:07.829+08:00Everyday Is A New DayUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger326125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-1290675362625498362014-03-28T23:51:00.001+08:002014-03-28T23:52:33.771+08:00洋葱<a href="http://youtu.be/LJiHWRJW6UI">http://youtu.be/LJiHWRJW6UI</a><div><br></div><div>重复地听了N次…</div><div>每一次都是第一句就让我掉泪…</div><div>哭…不是因为 Shila 唱得好…</div><div>她的确唱得很棒、的确非常渗透人心…</div><div>但我哭…是因为我是那颗洋葱…</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>20140328 11:52PM</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-66898907050184900312014-03-28T02:56:00.001+08:002014-03-28T03:08:34.323+08:00Lost.. Perhaps.... I Don't Know Anymore...Honestly..<div>I'm losing thoughts...</div><div>I wanted to be alright...</div><div>I know you love me the way I was...</div><div>I know you like the cheerful, strong and bubbly me...</div><div>I know nobody likes to see me the way I am now...</div><div>But....</div><div>I don't know how to go back...</div><div>When your mind is all filled with worries, fear, sadness, insecurity, doubts, anger, frustration and stress...</div><div>It just d<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">oesn't work properly...</span></div><div><br></div><div>Worries...</div><div>I'm worried that people leaves...</div><div>I'm worried that people judges...</div><div>I'm worried that people hates...</div><div>I'm worried that I can't work...</div><div>I'm worried of worries......</div><div><br></div><div>Fear....</div><div>I fear to be alone...</div><div>I fear of loneliness...</div><div>I fear when you blame...</div><div>I fear when you scold....</div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I fear that you will be gone...</span></div><div>I fear of fear itself....</div><div><br></div><div>Sadness...</div><div>I'm depressed....</div><div>Coz nobody understands....</div><div>Coz I don't get comforts....</div><div>Coz people still judges...</div><div>Coz you blamed...</div><div>Coz I'm alone...</div><div><br></div><div>Insecurity...</div><div>I feel insecure....</div><div>Coz I'm confused...</div><div>Coz there is uncertainties....</div><div>Coz instead of comfort.. You blamed and pushed me away...</div><div><br></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Doubts...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I doubt...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Whether I'm alright with it or not?</font></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">When I could think straight I am... When I'm depressed I'm not...</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I doubt whether what you are telling me is true or not?</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I doubt... Whether you will still stay for me.. Or you will not...</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I doubt... How much time do I have.. Before it strikes and I'm gone...</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I doubt... If I'm really gone... Would you finally understands? Or would you not...</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I doubt of myself... My confident and my courage to move on....</span></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I doubt on eveything... Every fear and every thoughts...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Anger...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm angry too seeing the twitch in me...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm angry...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I make you angry...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I make you sad...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I make you worry...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I make you stress...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm angry... Coz I can't do anything except for feeling more stressed...</font></div><div><br></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Frustration...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm frustrated...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I can't cheer up...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I can't make people stay...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I can't think...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I can't make fear and worries go away...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I can't express what I actually want...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I can't find peace...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I don't know how to tell you... About how you could do so that I'll listen to you...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Stress...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm stressed...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz of worries...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz of fear....</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz of insecurity...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz of doubts...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz of anger...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz of frustration...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz... Though I know I should gear up...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">But I don't know how to...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz I'm stressed about stress...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Seriously... </font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">You said that our thinkings are far too different...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Actually it's not...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">You have no idea at all when I'm thinking the same way as you are...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">But do you know why I'm only thinking of it instead of doing it??</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm telling you that I am in pain... </font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">But you did not hear the weaker voice saying "Help me..Grab my hand and don't let go"...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">You blamed me for not listening...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">You blamed me for depressed...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">You blamed me for all the things I do...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">And you said it's all out of care and concern....</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">But my heart just seems to block them away...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Not that I don't listen...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Perhaps I'm awaiting to see more encouraging words/action...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Words/action that could break the wall...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Words/action that could melt the ice...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Words/action that could make me cry tears of touch...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Perhaps...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I don't know...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">Coz it's haywire inside...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I don't know anymore...</font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></font></div><div><font face="Helvetica Neue Light, HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">20140328 2:56AM</font></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-34650695129764837502014-03-23T14:54:00.001+08:002014-03-23T14:54:57.728+08:00我没说的,你听到了吗?别被我骗了。<div>别被我的面具给骗了。</div><div>我带着一个面具,千个面具,</div><div>我没有勇气除下面具,</div><div>没有一个是真的我。</div><div>伪装几乎已成了我的本能,</div><div>别被我骗了,</div><div>千万别被我骗了。</div><div>我让你以为我是安然的,</div><div>以为我里里外外都一样的阳光普照,万里无云,</div><div>以为我充满信心,冷静淡定,</div><div>以为我心如止水,收放自如,</div><div>以为我不需要任何人,</div><div>不过,请别相信我。</div><div>我外表看起来祥和,然而那正是我的面具--变幻莫测,莫测高深。</div><div>面具下没有惬意,</div><div>只有一片混乱,恐惧与孤寂。</div><div>我不想让任何人知道,</div><div>所以我戴上面具。</div><div><br></div><div>一想到可能泄漏了自己的怯弱和恐惧,让我惊恐不已。</div><div>于是我慌乱地制造了一个面具,</div><div>一个看来漠然的,事故的面具,</div><div>让我伪装,</div><div>让我避开那洞悉人心的一瞥。</div><div>但那正是能救赎我的一瞥,</div><div>我知道那是我唯一的希望--</div><div>如果那一瞥之后是接纳,是关爱。</div><div>那是可以让我--</div><div>从我一手创建的囹圄里,</div><div>从我辛辛苦苦筑起来的围墙里</div><div>得到释放的唯一希望。</div><div>那是唯一能安抚我这颗,自己也无法安抚的心的希望,</div><div>唯一让我觉得自己有价值的希望。</div><div>可是我不告诉你,我不敢,我害怕,</div><div>害怕你那一瞥之后不是接纳,</div><div>不是爱。</div><div>我害怕你会觉得我没那么好,害怕你取笑我,</div><div>而你的取笑,会置我于死地。</div><div>我害怕自己一文不值,害怕自己不够好,</div><div>害怕被你发现以后你会拒绝我。</div><div><br></div><div>于是我玩着伪装的游戏,绝望的游戏--</div><div>表面上看起来自信满满,</div><div>内心深处却是一个发抖颤栗的小孩。</div><div>于是我戴着灿烂但空虚的面具上阵,</div><div>伪装,成为了我第二个生命。</div><div>我以柔和的语调与你闲闲地聊着不着边际的话题。</div><div>我什么都说,却什么都没说,</div><div>我没说出我最在乎,最叫我心碎的事。</div><div>所以当我一贯地这么做的时候,</div><div>别被我所说的蒙骗了。</div><div>请用你的心聆听,听听我没说的,</div><div>以及我希望我能说的;</div><div>听听为了生存,我必须说的,</div><div>以及我不能说的。</div><div><br></div><div>我不喜欢瞒骗,</div><div>我不喜欢玩这种表面伪装的游戏。</div><div>我不想再玩了。</div><div>我要真诚的,如实地做回我自己,</div><div>但是你可得帮我。</div><div>请伸出你的手</div><div>即使我看起来似乎毫不在乎。</div><div>只有你能抹去我眼中死尸般的空洞,</div><div>只有你能唤醒我的生命力。</div><div>每当你善意温柔地鼓励我的时候,</div><div>每当你怀着爱心尝试了解我的时候,</div><div>我的心开始长出翅膀,</div><div>非常小的翅膀,</div><div>非常微弱的翅膀,</div><div>但,是翅膀!</div><div><br></div><div>你唤醒了我的情感,为我注入了生命力,</div><div>你知道吗?</div><div>你知道你对我而言是多么重要吗?</div><div>你可以成为一个忠于造物者的创造者--</div><div>创造一个真正的我--</div><div>如果你愿意这么做的话。</div><div>单靠你,就可以摧毁我躲在其后颤抖战栗的围墙,</div><div>单靠你,就能除下我的面具,</div><div>单靠你,就能救赎我自阴暗惊恐的世界,</div><div>自动荡的世界,自荒凉的囹圄--</div><div>如果你愿意这么做的话。</div><div>请这么做。</div><div>别与我插肩而过。</div><div><br></div><div>对你而言,这不是件容易的事。</div><div>经年累月的相信自己是一文不值的,</div><div>这种信仰成了坚固的围墙。</div><div>你越靠近我,我可能会越盲目地反击。</div><div>只是不可理喻的,无论书本上是怎么赞叹人类,</div><div>我就是那么的不可理喻。</div><div>我抗拒所有我渴望得到的。</div><div>不过,有人说爱比围墙更坚不可摧,</div><div>在爱里,有我的希望。</div><div>请试试摧毁那些围墙,</div><div>用你坚定的手,但又温柔的手,</div><div>因为墙内的小孩是很敏感的。</div><div><br></div><div>我是谁?你或许想知道吧。</div><div>我是你很熟悉的人。</div><div>是你遇到的每一个男人,</div><div>也是你遇到的每一个女人。</div><div><br></div><div>Charles C. Finn, 1966</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>20140323 2:54PM</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-2usCFJmVUZc/Uy6FPhgfofI/AAAAAAAAB7M/ISYAelSRSWM/s640/blogger-image--22075729.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-2usCFJmVUZc/Uy6FPhgfofI/AAAAAAAAB7M/ISYAelSRSWM/s640/blogger-image--22075729.jpg"></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-43585735951663915042014-03-23T13:02:00.001+08:002014-03-23T13:44:58.929+08:00Please... Hear What I'm Not SayingDon't be fooled by me<div>Don't be fooled by the face I wear</div><div>For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,</div><div>Masks that I'm afraid to take off,</div><div>And none of them is me.</div><div><br></div><div>Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,</div><div>But don't be fooled,</div><div>For God's sake don't be fooled.</div><div>I give you the impression that I'm secure,</div><div>That all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without,</div><div>That confidence is my name and coolness my game,</div><div>That the water's calm and I'm in command</div><div>And that I need no one,</div><div>But don't believe me.</div><div>My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,</div><div>Ever-varying and ever-concealing.</div><div>Beneath lies no complacence.</div><div>Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.</div><div>But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.</div><div>I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.</div><div>That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,</div><div>A nonchalant sophisticated facade,</div><div>To help me pretend,</div><div>To shield me from the glance that knows.</div><div><br></div><div>But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only hope, and I know it.</div><div>That is, if it's followed by acceptance, </div><div>If it's followed by love.</div><div>It's the only thing that can liberate my from myself,</div><div>From my own self-built prison walls,</div><div>From the barriers I so painstakingly erect.</div><div>It's the only thing that will assure me</div><div>Of what I can't assure myself,</div><div>That I'm really worth something.</div><div>But I don't tell you this. I don't dare to, I'm afraid to.</div><div>I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance,</div><div>Will not be followed by love.</div><div>I'm afraid you'll think less of me.</div><div>That you'll laugh, and you laugh would kill me.</div><div>I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing</div><div>And that you will see this and reject me.</div><div><br></div><div>So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,</div><div>With a facade of assurance without</div><div>And a trembling child within.</div><div>So begins the glittering but empty parade of masks,</div><div>And my life becomes a front.</div><div>I idly chatter to you in the suave tones of surface talk.</div><div>I tell you everything that's really nothing,</div><div>And nothing of what's everything, </div><div>Of what's crying within me.</div><div>So when I'm going through my routine</div><div>Do not be fooled by what I'm saying.</div><div>Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,</div><div>What I'd like to be able to say,</div><div>What for survival I need to say,</div><div>But what I can't say.</div><div><br></div><div>I don't like hiding.</div><div>I don't like playing superficial phony games.</div><div>I want to stop playing them.</div><div>I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me</div><div>But you've got to help me.</div><div>You've got to hold out you hand</div><div>Even when that's the last thing I seem to want.</div><div>Only you can wipe away from my eyes</div><div>The blank stare of the breathing dead.</div><div>Only you can call me into aliveness.</div><div>Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,</div><div>Each time you try to understand because you really care,</div><div>My heart begins to grow wings~~</div><div>Very small wings,</div><div>Very feeble wings,</div><div>But wings!</div><div><br></div><div>With your power to touch me into feeling</div><div>You can breath life into me.</div><div>I want you to know that.</div><div>I want you to know how important you are to me,</div><div>How you can be a creator-- an honest-to-God creator-- </div><div>Of the person that is me</div><div>If you choose to.</div><div>You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,</div><div>You alone can remove my mask,</div><div>You alone can release me from my shadow-world of panic,</div><div>From my lonely prison,</div><div>If you choose to.</div><div>Please choose to.</div><div><br></div><div>Do not pass me by.</div><div>It will not be easy for you.</div><div>A long conviction of worthlessness build strong walls.</div><div>The nearer you approach to me</div><div>The blinder I may strike back.</div><div>It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man</div><div>Often I am irrational.</div><div>I fight against the very thing I cry out for.</div><div>But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls</div><div>And in this lies my hope.</div><div>Please try to beat down those walls</div><div>With firm hands but with gentle hands</div><div>For a child is very sensitive.</div><div><br></div><div>Who am I, you may wonder?</div><div>I am someone you know very well.</div><div>For I am every man you meet</div><div>Ans I am very woman you meet.</div><div><br></div><div>Charles C. Finn</div><div>September 1966</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>20140322 1:44PM</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-j0n2an-4ejg/Uy502ID7z4I/AAAAAAAAB68/is3rV6FGrZ0/s640/blogger-image--1469792140.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-j0n2an-4ejg/Uy502ID7z4I/AAAAAAAAB68/is3rV6FGrZ0/s640/blogger-image--1469792140.jpg"></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-35849151833858445292014-01-05T09:37:00.001+08:002014-01-05T09:37:26.156+08:00A Sweet DreamI was in my white gown..<div>You're in your suit..</div><div>Your face is blur, but I can feel my heartbeat fast..</div><div>And sweet blood runs in my vein..</div><div>You held my hand and we kissed..</div><div>We took our vow...</div><div>But it's just a dream..</div><div>I have no idea why I still dreamed of you..</div><div>It's been ages since we're separated...</div><div>And whenever it comes to dreams like this it'll always be you..</div><div>I actually feel happy waking up with that dream, but just one thing which is not right, the hero is you..</div><div>I'll remember the dream, sorry I won't remember you..</div><div>First ever sweet dream in the year of 2014..</div><div>Good morning world~</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>20140105 9.37AM</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-48721942679866148892013-12-12T13:54:00.001+08:002013-12-12T13:54:10.400+08:00Hope & Strength<div>I've always hope that thing will get better...</div><div>No matter how hard life has brought me down...</div><div>Might cry and complain and make a fuss about it...</div><div>But I've always hold on...</div><div>Lessons from the past taught me not to say words that hurt...</div><div>Especially when you're not thinking rationally...</div><div>I never say anything like that these days...</div><div>Perhaps it's coz of Karma as I keep getting those words back...</div><div>Now I guess I need to have little faith, trust and pixie dust to overcome it....</div><div>I need extra boost of strength to hold on...</div><div>Hope that everything will turn out just fine..</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>Now...</div><div>Any idea where to get my pixie dusts??</div><div><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-vD4qluGf-Ag/UqlPf01jjzI/AAAAAAAAB6o/B4lUM2TCUgo/s640/blogger-image-210653222.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-vD4qluGf-Ag/UqlPf01jjzI/AAAAAAAAB6o/B4lUM2TCUgo/s640/blogger-image-210653222.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">20131212 1.54PM</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-1714917023630548272013-12-05T14:53:00.001+08:002013-12-05T14:53:46.762+08:00Just Love & CareGirls like diamonds, roses, little gifts, romantic gifts....<br />
Sometimes they are materialistic..And realistic...<br />
Gifts.. Big or small.. Makes them happy...<br />
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Well, I'm a girl...<br />
But in order to be happy...I don't need stuffs..<br />
Yes, I'll be glad if people gift me things...<br />
But that's temporary.. The happiness and satisfaction just won't last long...<br />
I've been asking myself for a long time..<br />
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"What's the thing that I need the most?"<br />
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And I guess I had the answer..<br />
I need affection.. To feel love.. To be cared..<br />
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I don't know.. Maybe it's the thing that I went through when I was younger..<br />
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I'm a attention seeking kid back then..</div>
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Always seek for love and words of care from parents and friends...</div>
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But it all ended up the opposite way..</div>
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Yes I've got the attention.. </div>
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But at the same time I've got rejections, denials, words of hatred...</div>
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And I've got caned and locked away as well...<br />
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I've always been insecure...</div>
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Easily scared...</div>
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So I protected myself...</div>
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My heart has been broken.. I tried to put it back in shape..</div>
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The already shattered heart has been sealed for a very long time...</div>
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It'll only be opened to those whom I think are trustable... But there's only 3 of them..</div>
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No more..</div>
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The key to unlock it is easy..</div>
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It doesn't need gold or platinum or diamonds...</div>
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Definitely doesn't need roses or rings or any stuffs...</div>
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All it needs is some love and affection...</div>
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A simple hug that reacts from the heart will do...</div>
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I'll tend to cry when people hugs me... </div>
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And cry harder when I'm initially crying...</div>
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But don't worry, it's a sign of relieve...</div>
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Simply means that my broken heart is being soothed, that it feels it.. The affection..</div>
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Unfinished business that prolonged from chilhood I guess...</div>
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Sometimes I feel that I'm still like a kid...</div>
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You might tell me that I can create my own strength and value... That I can be strong on my own..</div>
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But the thing is.. I've been strong on my own for a very long time..</div>
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I just need a break in between...</div>
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Just someone there for me...</div>
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Yes.. I need someone too :(((</div>
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Who will be there when I need them most??</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-26306084819475822862013-10-20T20:42:00.001+08:002013-10-20T22:44:14.456+08:00Quote Of The Day" Of course I'll hurt you. Of course you'll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence."<div><br></div><div>- The Little Prince</div><div><br></div><div><br><div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-hERMuThwarI/UmPsPA_pdUI/AAAAAAAAB2I/JO7a5ldPFpI/s640/blogger-image-2116300353.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-hERMuThwarI/UmPsPA_pdUI/AAAAAAAAB2I/JO7a5ldPFpI/s640/blogger-image-2116300353.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>20131020 8.48PM</div><div><br></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-34057373422758354392013-10-20T18:00:00.001+08:002013-10-20T18:02:31.206+08:00累,泪一直都是我主动说话~<div>一直都是我主动说想见~</div><div>一直都是我主动说想抱了~</div><div>我真的不是主动的人,那不是我的性格~</div><div>不知道.. 真的不知道为什么我会这样...</div><div>只知道在你面前我无法伪装...</div><div><br></div><div>可是,主动久了,会累~</div><div>我累了...</div><div>累到不想说什么...</div><div>累到不想反抗...</div><div>累到...不想在乎了...</div><div>累了,想放弃了...</div><div><br></div><div>放弃,能吗?</div><div>我知道你一定会说..</div><div>"只要你开心就好,我无所谓.."</div><div>这类的话,会让我更难过..</div><div>难过的是,你没有挽留~</div><div>难过的是,这样的话让我觉得无论我去或留,你都无所谓...</div><div>难过的是,虽然你说不是这样,但我还是觉得自己有多么不重要,多么渺小...</div><div><br></div><div>眼泪掉了~</div><div>不想再想了~</div><div><br></div><div>20131020 6.06PM</div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-5759033662613677942013-10-19T00:39:00.001+08:002013-10-19T00:39:30.058+08:00Behind That SkinMight seems tough on the outside..<br />
But behind that mask there's a very small heart..<br />
That's easily frightened..<br />
Easily broken..<br />
The reason that I'm not dare to take that move..<br />
Is mainly because I'm too afraid to lose..<br />
Too afraid to experience the break of the heart again..<br />
I just wish that this moments lasts..<br />
Sadly, the fact won't let it just paused..<br />
I have to move on..<br />
So let's just move on with another stronger mask..<br />
Strong enough to cover those scars..<br />
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20131018 9.47AMUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-60822436134792745112013-10-16T14:57:00.001+08:002013-10-16T14:59:09.865+08:00Only Girls Will UnderstandBad day~~!!!!<div>Head spinning...</div><div>Hand shaking...</div><div>Ankle pain...</div><div>Back aching...</div><div>AND FUCKING CRAMP!!!!</div><div>It's not helping at all no matter what posture I'm in :(((((</div><div>Urghh~!!!!!</div><div><br></div><div>Can't I just be guy for a sec??!!!</div><div>:((((</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-76i0yIemloA/Ul443GPPEPI/AAAAAAAAB1Q/K6-5EITXBwo/s640/blogger-image-1786217181.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-76i0yIemloA/Ul443GPPEPI/AAAAAAAAB1Q/K6-5EITXBwo/s640/blogger-image-1786217181.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-Jz6zYssrxLU/Ul445XYb5aI/AAAAAAAAB1Y/nlSsBFUdnSE/s640/blogger-image--912262957.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-Jz6zYssrxLU/Ul445XYb5aI/AAAAAAAAB1Y/nlSsBFUdnSE/s640/blogger-image--912262957.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">20131016 2.57PM</div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-27998023831661330282013-10-16T02:14:00.001+08:002013-10-16T02:14:02.221+08:00A Lil Stupid TodayWhen it's holiday and when you have nothing to do..<div>That's when the brain gets mischievous..</div><div>Today I put myself in misery :((((</div><div>It's holiday and I've got no where to go and no one to hang out with..</div><div>So literally I stayed home...switching channels...surf through Youtube...draw something...waiting for somebody...</div><div>It was a really bad morning as I was waken up by noises early morning..</div><div>Well... That put me in a bad mood in the 1st place.. </div><div><br></div><div>*Who'll be happy when you're forced to wake up eaaaarrrly in the morning DURING HOLIDAY??!!!*</div><div>*mad mad mad*</div><div><br></div><div>The main point is.. The brain is playing some tricks with me..</div><div>I know myself well and I know that my brain loves tricks, riddles, challenges, adventures, unusual stuffs...</div><div>Well... That's kinda cool..</div><div>But the uncool part is... It also likes unnecessary stuffs... Stuffs that are unwanted.. Stuffs that are meant to be forgotten...</div><div><br></div><div>Today, as I'm free, I was actually thinking something philosophical..</div><div>Something like "Since it's been years after those happened, will I be ok if I trace them back? Will I still be heartbroken if I am to dig them out?"</div><div>Challenge accepted and the story after that is actually stupid..</div><div>I sat there, staying still and tried to dig out those..well..things and people and emotions...</div><div>And as I do so it just felt like I'm cutting open my old scars..</div><div>Gahhhhhh~~ Buuuurn...</div><div>Yea it was stupid.. But I felt amazing how those...things...are still vivid in my memory..</div><div>I'm like watching replays throughout the process..</div><div>How I was being chased out..</div><div>How I was being slapped..</div><div>How I was being insulted...</div><div>How...........etc etc</div><div><br></div><div>I understand that these scars will follow me for my whole life..</div><div>Something that I can't make it fade..</div><div>All I can do is to hide them...</div><div>But I won't let them haunt me..</div><div>Coz I know that there's something bigger and better awaiting ahead..</div><div><br></div><div>Just... Sometimes a lil stupidity won't kill...</div><div>It did hurt... But it makes me stronger :P</div><div><br></div><div>Oh and thank you...</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I could cry and sob really comfortably when you're around... </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Thanks~</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Oh oh oh and and and....</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">I finished a masterpiece....</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-sPaASEf9xcQ/Ul2F6HM-NfI/AAAAAAAAB1A/SoR5JymMK50/s640/blogger-image-8007166.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-sPaASEf9xcQ/Ul2F6HM-NfI/AAAAAAAAB1A/SoR5JymMK50/s640/blogger-image-8007166.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Ta daaaa!!!!!</div>Her name is Arrietty..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">From the set of "The Borrower Arrietty" in the collection of Hayao Miyazaki..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Love this ^^</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Well, that's it for tonight..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Sweet dreams ❤</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">20131016 2.18AM</span></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-48695550053115506532013-10-13T21:12:00.001+08:002013-10-13T21:12:10.608+08:00Missing youNo idea why at all but I always miss the time that we shared..<div>The laughters..</div><div>The teasing...</div><div>The fights...</div><div>The hugs...</div><div>And the goodnight greetings that we shared...</div><div>Always missing you my dear friend ~~</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-lTo-ExyRkb0/UlqcKATGTAI/AAAAAAAAB0w/jXwyUmcpHHk/s640/blogger-image--1841118112.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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This kid here refused to eat his meat, and he stated his reason why:<br />
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"If we eat them, they'll die.."<br />
"Octopus is animal, cows are animals, pigs are animals, fishes are animals, they are all animals.."<br />
"I like to see them standing on their feet, happy..."<br />
"We're suppose to take care of them, not eating them..."<br />
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He's right, because they'll feel pain, because they'll die..<br />
That's why we don't take meat..<br />
We're suppose to take care of them, not killing them..<br />
Don't tell me that plants have lives too and we're not suppose to eat that...<br />
Plants don't feel pain, plants don't shed tears and blood..<br />
GOD created us human and he gave us food to survive, and these food are grains, veges, fruits...<br />
Not animals...<br />
Never ask me to try and eat meat again!! I'm not gonna do that even if you threaten me..<br />
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Go vegetarian, as simple as that.<br />
A standing ovation to you kid =)<br />
With gazillion of LOVES....<br />
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20131009 11.08AmUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-53279220163134159442013-10-06T22:31:00.001+08:002013-10-06T22:43:12.104+08:00Them Best FriendsssAs I walk along the path..<div>I have no idea how many people I'll be meeting..</div><div>Or who will actually walk in and out of my life..</div><div>But as long as there's someone who is worth cherishing, I'll cherish them from the bottom of my heart..</div><div>As I always tell my students, I'm not someone who'll easily give my trust to..</div><div>Nor someone who'll easily open her heart to somebody...</div><div>But then again, when there's someone who's able to lower the guard, then yes I'll let it all out..</div><div><br></div><div>Perhaps I should say that so far there's only a few really rare creatures which has...Somehow really bizarre powers that are able to do so.. </div><div>I could count them with one hand.. Hahaha...</div><div>To those whom I cherished~~~</div><div>My Spongebob...</div><div>My Piglet...</div><div>My Nobita....</div><div>I cherish the you and I love you all <3</div><div>HUGSSSSSSSS ^^<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-QaxK0PhVorQ/UlF0UxJQxtI/AAAAAAAAB0A/PVNn7aLwWDc/s640/blogger-image-1723918815.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-QaxK0PhVorQ/UlF0UxJQxtI/AAAAAAAAB0A/PVNn7aLwWDc/s640/blogger-image-1723918815.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-UDrNPNx5Lvs/UlF0ShVz7uI/AAAAAAAABz4/fff8fOemXes/s640/blogger-image--707983333.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-UDrNPNx5Lvs/UlF0ShVz7uI/AAAAAAAABz4/fff8fOemXes/s640/blogger-image--707983333.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-YtI_9-8ya5A/UlF0REMKvlI/AAAAAAAABzw/DdPu3LMI2XU/s640/blogger-image-196269181.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-YtI_9-8ya5A/UlF0REMKvlI/AAAAAAAABzw/DdPu3LMI2XU/s640/blogger-image-196269181.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">20131006 10:48PM</div><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><br></div><br></div><br></div></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-55315366274420647512013-05-06T01:33:00.001+08:002013-05-06T01:33:13.297+08:0005.05.2013Today is most probably the darkest day for all Malaysia citizen..<br />
GE-13... Vote? Democracy? People's choice?<br />
Bullshits.....<br />
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So what if people came out to vote?<br />
So what if people travelled a thousand miles to vote for a cleaner election?<br />
So what if people hurt and injure themselves during election day just for a better government?<br />
So what if people died after/before voting for a brighter future for their country?<br />
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You!!<br />
So called leaders of the country..<br />
Playing tricks in front of the people..<br />
By asking foreigners to vote for you...<br />
By registering voters who are not eligible to vote, voters who's already dead a hundred years ago...<br />
And now that you are losing..<br />
You again play other tricks in front of the people...<br />
Who were there witness the "miracle" and the "magical tricks" that you're playing..<br />
Who immediately trying to stop those "miracles" from happening and were being threaten...<br />
Not by others but by police force!!<br />
And you call this election fair and transparent??!!!<br />
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Yes, you may be winning the game..<br />
But you see, you lose everyone's heart!!!<br />
Me, as a Malaysia citizen, felt and is feeling guilty because I did not fulfill my responsibility to cast a vote..<br />
But now, other than guilt, I'm frustrated, sad and heartbroken..<br />
To see all these obvious corruptions that are playing in front of the people's eyes and yet we can do nothing to stop it...<br />
To see the future of our beloved country vanished....<br />
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But we won't lose hope...<br />
As long as we're the citizen of Malaysia...<br />
We will fight for our country's future!!<br />
For a clean election!!<br />
For democracy!!!<br />
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May Malaysia be safe from BN~~<br />
Amen...<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-54922637533794873512013-04-27T00:52:00.002+08:002013-04-27T00:55:28.638+08:00Learning From NatureWheat...<br />
The fuller it gets, the more it bends...<br />
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Are we being humble when we know more?<br />
When we know better than anybody else, do we empower others? Or get along and help them?<br />
What this small lil thing taught us is,<br />
When we are well educated,<br />
When we know best,<br />
When we become richer/the richest,<br />
When we have everything that we want, that other people ever wanted in this world...<br />
Are we still humble?<br />
Do we treat everyone the same?<br />
To me, power/fame/status isn't everything...<br />
The more you have but the more egoistic you are, people will leave you...<br />
However, the more you have but the more approachable you are, people will like you and supports you...<br />
Even willing to sacrifice for you...<br />
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Let's travel back to history..<br />
Don't you realize that kings/emperors who are mean and selfish will die alone without any care from the people?<br />
While rulers who are caring and humble, owned the love from the people, some even willing to sacrifice themselves...<br />
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When we have the power...<br />
What I think we should do is to use that advantage to help the weaker ones..<br />
When we have the knowledge...<br />
What I think we should is to share what we learn to those who can't afford to learn, educate them...<br />
When we have the money...<br />
What I think we should do is to help the poors, and those who are in need...<br />
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There is this Chinese sayings, which is "一样米养百种人"..<br />
Which means all wheat are the same, but the same wheat raises people from all over the world...<br />
It's the second things that it teaches us...<br />
Treat everyone fairly and equally...<br />
We are all standing on the same land..<br />
If Mother Earth never discriminate us human, who are the ones destroying its beauty...<br />
Then why should we discriminate or look down at others? Even animals...<br />
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That's what wheat taught me..<br />
I'm only learning from nature =)<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-6312945221828630282013-04-17T00:42:00.001+08:002013-04-17T00:42:36.628+08:00Emotional Night BloggingI might be like "Whatever" or "Nahh, I don't care much" at times..<br />
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But during days or nights like this when I'm thinking a lil too much and cause myself emotion attacks.. (<-- SUCKS!!)<br />
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I do wish that there will be a wide and warm shoulders for me to lean on..<br />
Arms that could hold me tight and tell me <br />
"I'm here with you, everything will be just fine"...<br />
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Owwhhhh sucks~~~~~ :'(<br />
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20130417 12.42AMUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-91745395767972033292013-02-28T00:45:00.001+08:002013-02-28T00:49:05.473+08:00With You by Leah DouSong sang by Faye Wong's daughter..<br />
She definitely inherited her mother's gene..<br />
Talented girl that's gonna shine bright in the future..<br />
Loving this song ^^<br />
Support!!<br />
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<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">There isn't a minute I would spend without you</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">There isn't a moment I can breath without you</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">Every piece of my heart belongs to you</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">Nothing can stop us now</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;" />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">I walked in with a smile on my face</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">Coz seeing you makes me feel </span><span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">living grace</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">So I need to tell you right, right now something</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;" />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">I know you scared of what the future holds</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">Don't get me wrong coz I do too</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">But right now I can tell you</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">You don't have to fear</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">Coz you and I are like the leaves and flower</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">Without you I can't live for an hour</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">I say you're crazy</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">But I know that it's true</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">That if there was a forever I'm spending with you</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><br />
</span> <span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">With you~~~</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><br />
</span> <span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">You say "you're down, what's on your mind?"</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">I say "nothing but I'm hypnotized"</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">But would this moment last forever, foreverI know you scared of what the future holds</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">Don't get me wrong coz I do too</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">But right now I can tell you</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">You don't have to fear</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;"><br />
</span><span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">Coz you and I are like the </span><span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">leaves and flower</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">Without you I can't live for an hour</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">I say you're crazy </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">but I know that it's true</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">that if there was a forever I'm spending with you</span><br />
<br style="background-color: white; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;" />
<span style="background-color: #f9f9f9; font-family: Tahoma, Helvetica, SimSun, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; word-wrap: break-word;">With you~~~</span><br />
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Is to share my deepest thoughts to everyone...<br />
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To blog<br />
Is to realize what I had done and how will my deeds affect my life as well as my personality...<br />
<br />
To blog<br />
Is to understand myself, what am I thinking, what am I doing, what are my values in life...<br />
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To blog<br />
Is to express myself, not to seek sympathy from anyone, neither is empathy, but to explore as well as improve my own quality of life...<br />
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To blog<br />
Is a very good channel to find myself and to share my thoughts..<br />
Exploration is done through writing and from there I search for my values..<br />
So why no blogging? ^^<br />
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20130226 11.21PMUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-30319694171734539852013-02-26T20:18:00.001+08:002013-02-26T20:19:56.765+08:00Dark Side<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/SC6QW9H1zUs" width="459"></iframe><br />
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Yes, nobody is actually perfect.<br />
When you love somebody you accept everything of him/her.<br />
Maybe at the beginning you won't see the dark side of theirs, coz who'd wanna show you their dark side?<br />
But soon you study your love ones and realize their dark side, will you still love them?<br />
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This song made me tear as it made me think of the past.<br />
But past is past, now I'm looking at the future.<br />
I believe that I had become a better me, and I still can become an even better me.<br />
Enjoy the song.<br />
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Oh oh oh, there's a place that I know<br />
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone<br />
If I show it to you now<br />
Will it make you run away?<br />
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Or will you stay<br />
Even if it hurts<br />
Even if I try to push you out<br />
Will you return?<br />
And remind me who I really am<br />
Please remind me who I really am<br />
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Everybody's got a dark side<br />
Do you love me?<br />
Can you love mine?<br />
Nobody's a picture perfect<br />
But we're worth it<br />
You know that we're worth it<br />
Will you love me?<br />
Even with my dark side?<br />
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Like a diamond<br />
From black dust<br />
It's hard to know<br />
What can become<br />
If you give up<br />
So don't give up on me<br />
Please remind me who I really am<br />
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Everybody's got a dark side<br />
Do you love me?<br />
Can you love mine?<br />
Nobody's a picture perfect<br />
But we're worth it<br />
You know that we're worth it<br />
Will you love me?<br />
Even with my dark side?<br />
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Don't run away<br />
Don't run away<br />
Just tell me that you will stay<br />
Promise me you will stay<br />
Don't run away<br />
Don't run away<br />
Just promise me you will stay<br />
Promise me you will stay<br />
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Will you love me? ohh<br />
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Everybody's got a dark side<br />
Do you love me?<br />
Can you love mine?<br />
Nobody's a picture perfect<br />
But we're worth it<br />
You know that we're worth it<br />
Will you love me?<br />
Even with my dark side?<br />
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Don't run away<br />
Don't run away<br />
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Don't run away<br />
Promise you'll stay</div>
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You know.. Exams, assignments, group works...<br />
Gave me headaches..<br />
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But now that I'm graduated and stepped into the world of work...<br />
It's not what I thought it should be..<br />
It just no that you goes to work, do as what you're told to, done, and leave.. <br />
You have to contribute 100% of your responsibility, sometimes more!!<br />
Especially in the educational line, extra aware you have to be..<br />
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Everyday I have to monitor the students' progress..<br />
Make sure they're disciplined..<br />
Make sure they're learning and doing their work..<br />
Make sure that parents are satisfied..<br />
Honestly, I was still not used to this and it gave me severe headache @@<br />
Especially the parents part..<br />
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To be frank some parents are ridiculously demanding, while they're the ones not contributing..<br />
I wanna have a say here.. Now listen dear daddies and mommies.. <br />
Just don't think that you're paying the fees then you pass every job to us, they're your kids, YOU have the responsibilities to educate them as well..<br />
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Overall, if you wanna succeed in a career it comes with great responsibility..<br />
Without any contribution you'll get nothing..<br />
I was wrong about studying back then now I really miss study life.. (Sorry T^T)<br />But I'm gonna go ahead and adapt..<br />
Perhaps I can create better future generation..<br />
I know I can do it =)<br />
Aza aza!!<br />
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20121108 1.43PMUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-49972618252681914432012-10-31T23:44:00.000+08:002012-10-31T23:44:12.440+08:00Just Smile and WaveSomeone's waiting for you to breakdown..<br />
Someone's waiting to see the fallout..<br />
Keep your eyes open even when you're sleeping said Taylor Swift..<br />
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Well, I'd say "Just smile and wave" like the penguins sweetie ^^<br />
Just smile and wave..<br />
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20121031 11.44PMUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7232154260817423513.post-50919283520414863482012-10-23T00:40:00.001+08:002012-10-23T13:22:34.725+08:00Ignorance Is BlissIgnorance is bliss...<br />
True..<br />
Recently I had been feeling indifferent with stuffs, either negative or positive..<br />
I'm surprise actually..<br />
Is it because of PMS?? Or I've gone crazy??<br />
Hahahaha.. No idea...<br />
But one thing that I know is that, when you stop clinging to things/events/people around you, you'll suffer less..<br />
Especially to bad things that happens in life..<br />
One recipe of finding happiness in ourselves is to stop clinging to the past isn't it?<br />
If we keep thinking about things that happened it'll be hard for us to actually move forward..<br />
For example, if we keep thinking about someone who betrayed us..<br />
We'll only feel angry, frustrated, hate and sad..<br />
Why torture ourselves with all those rubbish?<br />
Be happy instead...<br />
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That day when my uncles got into a fight, me and my mom had to travel down to my grandparents' place coz my grandma nearly fainted...<br />
I remember this neighbor of my grandma told us a story of hers:<br />
There was this lady who started a fight with her and eventually slapped her..<br />
She did not hated that lady, in fact she kept helping her after that..<br />
That lady was so embarrassed and regret for what she did..<br />
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So, moral of the story..<br />
When people act bad against us, we don't downgrade ourselves to act the same as they did..<br />
Keep classy, just ignore --> forgive --> forget..<br />
You'll be more happy ^^<br />
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P/S: I know saying this is easy peasy, I feel the same way too.<br />
Hahaha...<br />
BUT!! Who knows what will happen in the future if I keep reminding myself right?<br />
Good luck =)<br />
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