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Bad day~~!!!!

Head spinning...

Hand shaking...

Ankle pain...

Back aching...

AND FUCKING CRAMP!!!!

It's not helping at all no matter what posture I'm in :(((((

Urghh~!!!!!

Can't I just be guy for a sec??!!!

:((((

20131016    2.57PM

A Lil Stupid Today

When it's holiday and when you have nothing to do..

That's when the brain gets mischievous..

Today I put myself in misery :((((

It's holiday and I've got no where to go and no one to hang out with..

So literally I stayed home...switching channels...surf through Youtube...draw something...waiting for somebody...

It was a really bad morning as I was waken up by noises early morning..

Well... That put me in a bad mood in the 1st place.. 

*Who'll be happy when you're forced to wake up eaaaarrrly in the morning DURING HOLIDAY??!!!*

*mad mad mad*

The main point is.. The brain is playing some tricks with me..

I know myself well and I know that my brain loves tricks, riddles, challenges, adventures, unusual stuffs...

Well... That's kinda cool..

But the uncool part is... It also likes unnecessary stuffs... Stuffs that are unwanted.. Stuffs that are meant to be forgotten...

Today, as I'm free, I was actually thinking something philosophical..

Something like "Since it's been years after those happened, will I be ok if I trace them back? Will I still be heartbroken if I am to dig them out?"

Challenge accepted and the story after that is actually stupid..

I sat there, staying still and tried to dig out those..well..things and people and emotions...

And as I do so it just felt like I'm cutting open my old scars..

Gahhhhhh~~ Buuuurn...

Yea it was stupid.. But I felt amazing how those...things...are still vivid in my memory..

I'm like watching replays throughout the process..

How I was being chased out..

How I was being slapped..

How I was being insulted...

How...........etc etc

I understand that these scars will follow me for my whole life..

Something that I can't make it fade..

All I can do is to hide them...

But I won't let them haunt me..

Coz I know that there's something bigger and better awaiting ahead..

Just... Sometimes a lil stupidity won't kill...

It did hurt... But it makes me stronger :P

Oh and thank you...

I could cry and sob really comfortably when you're around... 

Thanks~

Oh oh oh and and and....

I finished a masterpiece....

Ta daaaa!!!!!

Her name is Arrietty..

From the set of "The Borrower Arrietty" in the collection of Hayao Miyazaki..

Love this ^^

Well, that's it for tonight..

Sweet dreams ❤

20131016    2.18AM

Missing you

No idea why at all but I always miss the time that we shared..

The laughters..

The teasing...

The fights...

The hugs...

And the goodnight greetings that we shared...

Always missing you my dear friend ~~

20131013    9.17PM

Gazillion of Loves

Early morning when I surf through Facebook I found this clip which immediately touched my heart...
This kid here refused to eat his meat, and he stated his reason why:

"If we eat them, they'll die.."
"Octopus is animal, cows are animals, pigs are animals, fishes are animals, they are all animals.."
"I like to see them standing on their feet, happy..."
"We're suppose to take care of them, not eating them..."

He's right, because they'll feel pain, because they'll die..
That's why we don't take meat..
We're suppose to take care of them, not killing them..
Don't tell me that plants have lives too and we're not suppose to eat that...
Plants don't feel pain, plants don't shed tears and blood..
GOD created us human and he gave us food to survive, and these food are grains, veges, fruits...
Not animals...
Never ask me to try and eat meat again!! I'm not gonna do that even if you threaten me..

Go vegetarian, as simple as that.
A standing ovation to you kid =)
With gazillion of LOVES....

20131009   11.08Am

Them Best Friendsss

As I walk along the path..

I have no idea how many people I'll be meeting..

Or who will actually walk in and out of my life..

But as long as there's someone who is worth cherishing, I'll cherish them from the bottom of my heart..

As I always tell my students, I'm not someone who'll easily give my trust to..

Nor someone who'll easily open her heart to somebody...

But then again, when there's someone who's able to lower the guard, then yes I'll let it all out..

Perhaps I should say that so far there's only a few really rare creatures which has...Somehow really bizarre powers that are able to do so.. 

I could count them with one hand.. Hahaha...

To those whom I cherished~~~

My Spongebob...

My Piglet...

My Nobita....

I cherish the you and I love you all <3

HUGSSSSSSSS ^^

20131006    10:48PM

05.05.2013

Today is most probably the darkest day for all Malaysia citizen..
GE-13... Vote? Democracy? People's choice?
Bullshits.....

So what if people came out to vote?
So what if people travelled a thousand miles to vote for a cleaner election?
So what if people hurt and injure themselves during election day just for a better government?
So what if people died after/before voting for a brighter future for their country?

You!!
So called leaders of the country..
Playing tricks in front of the people..
By asking foreigners to vote for you...
By registering voters who are not eligible to vote, voters who's already dead a hundred years ago...
And now that you are losing..
You again play other tricks in front of the people...
Who were there witness the "miracle" and the "magical tricks" that you're playing..
Who immediately trying to stop those "miracles" from happening and were being threaten...
Not by others but by police force!!
And you call this election fair and transparent??!!!

Yes, you may be winning the game..
But you see, you lose everyone's heart!!!
Me, as a Malaysia citizen, felt and is feeling guilty because I did not fulfill my responsibility to cast a vote..
But now, other than guilt, I'm frustrated, sad and heartbroken..
To see all these obvious corruptions that are playing in front of the people's eyes and yet we can do nothing to stop it...
To see the future of our beloved country vanished....

But we won't lose hope...
As long as we're the citizen of Malaysia...
We will fight for our country's future!!
For a clean election!!
For democracy!!!

May Malaysia be safe from BN~~
Amen...

20130506. 1.33AM

Learning From Nature

Wheat...
The fuller it gets, the more it bends...

Are we being humble when we know more?
When we know better than anybody else, do we empower others? Or get along and help them?
What this small lil thing taught us is,
When we are well educated,
When we know best,
When we become richer/the richest,
When we have everything that we want, that other people ever wanted in this world...
Are we still humble?
Do we treat everyone the same?
To me, power/fame/status isn't everything...
The more you have but the more egoistic you are, people will leave you...
However, the more you have but the more approachable you are, people will like you and supports you...
Even willing to sacrifice for you...

Let's travel back to history..
Don't you realize that kings/emperors who are mean and selfish will die alone without any care from the people?
While rulers who are caring and humble, owned the love from the people, some even willing to sacrifice themselves...

When we have the power...
What I think we should do is to use that advantage to help the weaker ones..
When we have the knowledge...
What I think we should is to share what we learn to those who can't afford to learn, educate them...
When we have the money...
What I think we should do is to help the poors, and those who are in need...

There is this Chinese sayings, which is "一样米养百种人"..
Which means all wheat are the same, but the same wheat raises people from all over the world...
It's the second things that it teaches us...
Treat everyone fairly and equally...
We are all standing on the same land..
If Mother Earth never discriminate us human, who are the ones destroying its beauty...
Then why should we discriminate or look down at others? Even animals...

That's what wheat taught me..
I'm only learning from nature =)

20130427    12.52AM