At Last..The Final Answer...

I QUIT!!
Ya, that's my decision!
Since there are so many problems then I'll just quit.
Not that because I can't take the criticism or the blame.
It's because I'm tired to have to handle so many things and I really can't take it!
And also it's not that I'm not responsible, if you're in my situation you'll know how HECTIC my life is RIGHT NOW!!
I don't want to explain anything because I am wrong in some ways that I didn't pay enough attention on this and I didn't ask about the progress.
But the other blames that shouldn't be blamed on me......well, I'm not going to say anything.
Because you've already had the judgement on me and you'd expected me to do things the way you wanted me to do or to response in the way you think I'll response.
I can't do anything because I'm definitely not going to behave like what you think I'll behave!!
You see or not??
As a Psychology student, we all knew that we shouldn't expect people to say or do things the way you wanted them to be.
We all knew that expectations are not going to work.
And we all expect things to happen so much that cause things to be like this.
Not only it hurts others but at the same time, don't you feel guilty??
Without even understanding the situation, without even get a clear view of the statement, you expect it as the way YOU interpreted it!
Can't you even ask what's the real deal???
Ok..Period! I'm glad I'm over with it now!
I just want to say that I'm happy with my own decision and I'm sure that it's the best thing for me.
Don't feel bad for me (For those who did only ok..)
I'm the kind of people who'll accept and keep quiet!
I won't go and cari pasal and make people feel guilty.
That's it!
For you guys, good luck!
Any problem PLEASE tell!! Don't wait until time like this only start to argue.
If you tell early then only people are able to change early!
Not wait until time like this.
Don't ever put it in your heart and never tell.
It's either you do it willingly or tell frankly!!
Lastly, ACCEPT RATHER THAN EXPECT!!
If you EXPECT people to do things the way you think they need to do and they're not doing it according to your way, TELL!!!
Good luck and enjoy!
Bye~

I won't expect much~ I'll just control~

20110129    1.14AM

So Sick Of It !!

Sigh....
I really hate all these things.
I'm not a firm person and totally not someone who's really tough that would scold people.
Even if they did wrongly also I'll just talk to them or don't say anything if I don't like it!
But now I have to make a decision whether to sack a person or not.
Gosh~!!!
This is very hard for me because I really hate stuff like this~!!!
It's been so long since the last time I'm the EXCO for something that I have to make this kind of tough decision.
I hate this you know.
As I'm the one who won't be tough and firm in handling this.
As a matter of fact I'll jaga people's feeling.
I JUST DON'T LIKE THIS!!
Maybe this is not something good about a leader because leaders have to make decision and have to be firm on it.
I know this 'theory' for a long time already.
But this is just so not me!
And I'm sick of it because all these shits were kind of discouraging to me and also to everyone!
I don't like this!
I don't like it at all!!
It sucks!!!
Really~~

20110127    7.57PM

Happy Chinese New Year

Been tired reading my emo posts
This is something nice I think
DIGI has its bright idea actually about its Yellow Man
The Yellow Men are so adorable and at the same time funny
I was cheered when I watched this video
So here it goes...
Happy Chinese New Year to all my beloved family and friends
Especially those whom I treasure a lot
And those who helped me in different ways
Physically and emotionally
I'm glad to be me and I'm indeed glad to know all of you
Although I'd not been happy these few weeks but still I still wish each and everyone of you a very Happy Chinese New Year
At the same time also I hope everything about me will change after Chinese New Year
Hey, I'm the head of the Snake right
Since it's my birthday every year on the FIRST DAY OF CNY itself
Everything should goes well with me
Because I'm supposed to be blessed on that day
^^♥

Happy Chinese New Year once again
Have a blessed and prosperous Rabbit year ahead~~


20110127    1.32AM

Damn Tired!

I can't believe I slept for whole day.
This morning when I woke up I felt awful.
And yea, I vomited twice and I'm totally strength-less.
I guess it's because of the gas in my stomach that cause the awfulness and also the vomit.
Because after vomit out some disgusting liquid it's just gas.
I didn't bring along my medicine, serves me right!
Ended up I ponteng class for the whole day and actually slept for the whole day.
Now I still feel weak.
Like I've got no energy to do anything.
Oh Gosh~

20110126    6.48PM

I'm very tired, very stressed, very DEPRESSED!!!

CNY is coming and it's just around the corner
I don't feel any happier at all
In fact I'm crying in my room so hard right now
That this didn't happen for a long while after I broke up with him and got better in Depression
It's attacking now again
I just feel so down and helpless and stressed and depressed
It's CNY..I don't wanna scold anyone and spoil their new year mood
I chose to spoil my own!!
So tired and restless
So afraid of the sound when Facebook messages are popping up
I'm not motivated at all to do anything
I'm very unhappy
Unhappy CNY~
Unhappy Birthday~

20110125    10.11PM

*&%$#@O(U&T%$E#@#$%^&*

靠！
还没试过一个晚上被气哭那么多次的！
你们厉害！
我不管了！！
我没眼看！！
你爱讲什么就讲什么！！
我都不会去看！！！

20110124    1.12AM

那口气…出不来…

受到无理的对待，忍！
明明就有一个 Assistant 却还要帮他收拾残局，忍！
身为 Chairman 却还要亲自跑遍大街小巷找赞助商，忍！
遇到不顺心的事，忍！
已经很烦恼还要看别人脸色做事，忍！
一个什么都不知道的人，你什么都不懂，还要讲是我的错！我 beh tahan 了！！！！！

有时候真想毫无忌惮的破口大骂！
(^)^(**#(_)#@_(*&*^#$*(@)__!@@(#*$&$^%&#**(@)!_)(*&@&#&!_@)#(
就这样骂个爽快！
就因为不想得罪别人～
不想让别人难堪，难过～
就必须把那口气吞下去～
可是忍下去了，化不掉啊！
现在我体内的那股负面能量～
随时能让我把身边的东西都砸掉！！
连在我面前的这部笔记本都不能赦免！
我真的很难受！！
不要再惹我！！我不知道我会做出什么举动！！
因为这已经是我的极限！！！
真他妈的难受！！

20110123    11.19PM