Hope & Strength

I've always hope that thing will get better...

No matter how hard life has brought me down...

Might cry and complain and make a fuss about it...

But I've always hold on...

Lessons from the past taught me not to say words that hurt...

Especially when you're not thinking rationally...

I never say anything like that these days...

Perhaps it's coz of Karma as I keep getting those words back...

Now I guess I need to have little faith, trust and pixie dust to overcome it....

I need extra boost of strength to hold on...

Hope that everything will turn out just fine..

Now...

Any idea where to get my pixie dusts??

20131212    1.54PM

Just Love & Care

Girls like diamonds, roses, little gifts, romantic gifts....
Sometimes they are materialistic..And realistic...
Gifts.. Big or small.. Makes them happy...

Well, I'm a girl...
But in order to be happy...I don't need stuffs..
Yes, I'll be glad if people gift me things...
But that's temporary.. The happiness and satisfaction just won't last long...
I've been asking myself for a long time..

"What's the thing that I need the most?"

And I guess I had the answer..
I need affection.. To feel love.. To be cared..

I don't know.. Maybe it's the thing that I went through when I was younger..

I'm a attention seeking kid back then..

Always seek for love and words of care from parents and friends...

But it all ended up the opposite way..

Yes I've got the attention.. 

But at the same time I've got rejections, denials, words of hatred...

And I've got caned and locked away as well...

I've always been insecure...

Easily scared...

So I protected myself...

My heart has been broken.. I tried to put it back in shape..

Still there's some unfound pieces...

The already shattered heart has been sealed for a very long time...

It'll only be opened to those whom I think are trustable... But there's only 3 of them..

No more..

The key to unlock it is easy..

It doesn't need gold or platinum or diamonds...

Definitely doesn't need roses or rings or any stuffs...

All it needs is some love and affection...

A simple hug that reacts from the heart will do...

I'll tend to cry when people hugs me... 

And cry harder when I'm initially crying...

But don't worry, it's a sign of relieve...

Simply means that my broken heart is being soothed, that it feels it.. The affection..

Unfinished business that prolonged from chilhood I guess...

Sometimes I feel that I'm still like a kid...

You might tell me that I can create my own strength and value... That I can be strong on my own..

But the thing is.. I've been strong on my own for a very long time..

I just need a break in between...

Just someone there for me...

Yes.. I need someone too :(((

Who will be there when I need them most??

20131205    2.52PM