Lovely Lovely

A lovely Sunday like this, I was trapped in a place called Kampar. Sigh~~ Edit some pictures, sing songs, reading my new book bought not long time ago (It's TWILIGHT!!! Hehe). Tired of doing assignment already so I just left it aside and enjoy my lovely Sunday. Yea~~ I turned to my Teddy Bear and felt a warm feeling run through my heart. Yes, Teddy Bears are my lifetime favourite!! I love Teddies so so much. I believe I've written the reason why I love them so much in my first blog, the feeling for them is still with me all these while. This moment, I was like a kid, lying down on bed, playing with the lovely thing. Haha...people must have laugh at me if they see me playing with it, at least my mum and dad will. But I'm glad that I've got them, because I can talk to them about everything that had happened to me, whether sad or joyous events; and for sure they will keep the secret and won't let it spread out, unlike human's mouth which is just so unstoppable and untrustworthy. Haha...crazy right? Hello, this is me, the real me! And I'm OK with myself, yea~~Haha...OK, I'll just stop here and continue playing with my Teddy. Come on lovely fella~~

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Sorry..I Can't Help To Cry

Can't help it, I cry like a baby again. Was in the room alone, maybe its because of the tiredness and the injuries that suddenly make me feel so helpless. Started to cry like a baby, sadness has been filling all over my mind, like I'm going through all the things again. If people knew it, most probably they'll say me STUPID. I'm ok with it, cause I know that they don't understand. Not that they don't understand how bad or how sad it was, they just don't understand me. Even now, tears are all over my face, wonder how I look like, must be ugly. Alth0ugh I keep telling myself to let go, but it just seems so hard for me; one day, I can think through and feels relief, the other day, I'll be down again. Sorry, I just can't help it.....
Hew Tong, I really miss your smile. You know, you used to smile and laugh like a kid, innocent and beautiful and most importantly, truly from the bottom of your heart. I miss that very much!
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