The "Fun" Thing

Sometimes, it's hard to live in a community
You know
Where you need to face different kinds of people
Each having their own perceptions and personalities
Well
It is not east at all

My life in university is fun
Erm..."Fun"
Because I always get to learn new things about a person
Sometimes I'll figure it out myself ( by observing within a short distance )
Sometimes people "talked" about them ( gossip will be more suitable )
Well
This is what you will be facing when you're living in a community with people from different places
You'll tend to hear different stories with many different versions
Which are very interesting
Yet the only weird thing is that
The many different stories with different versions
Is all about the same person

Well
Example always needed to make things clear
When you talk to A about B, there is one comment
When you talk to C about B also, there is another comment
Sometimes D might also have another comment on B
Then when you get along with B, you'll find out something very interesting
Which is
B will also have a lot of comments about A, C and D
And most of those comments are actually complains
Yes
This is indeed fun~

I was always caught in the middle though
Being the listener of these stories
Giving no comments
I kind of like able to get along well with everyone
Except for...You know...
Those whom I left
I can get along with A as well as B
And that's where I get all the "information"
A complained about B and B did the same thing
Haha
And apparently they are complaining the same issue about each other
Saying each other "So-Hai"
People are like this
Complains about others but didn't realize that he's also making the same mistake
And when he knew that people are complaining about him
He'll get pissed and started to fire back

I feel fun to be the audience
To sit back and observe
I can actually learn something from these you know
When you see someone make mistakes
Take a look at yourself
Did you make the same mistake?
I'm sure everyone made mistakes in their life
Some may realize while some may not
No matter how
I'm sure that everyone will hope others to forgive them
So why can't we just forgive and continue to move on
If you feel that you can't be friend with the person
Just ignore them and move on with your own life
No point to keep talking bad about them behind their backs
That will only make you as bad as them
Don't you think so??
Words can be a stimulation for someone to live out their life
Also it can be a stimulation to death...

And accept the fact that everyone have their very own perceptions and personalities
I mean you can't expect people to do things or say things according to your way
Chill...
Peace...

20101130    6.35PM

I Need Someone

Somehow at this time

I just need someone to be with me

A man that I love

Listen to me

Let me cry on his shoulder

Yet somehow

It's hard to find such a man...

Where are you my boy??

20101128     3.00AM

变质

当初
是谁对我说
“睡不着啊，没关系，睡不着就给我一个电话吧！我可以陪你，手机 24 小时为你开机！”
结果日子久了
我给你打了 10 次、100 次的电话
你都没有接……

当初
是谁对我说
“不要害怕，就算全世界都不理你了，你还有我，随时为你效劳……”
结果到了后来

你却对我说
“你不能一直都要我陪的啊！难道我没事情忙的哦？！”

当初
是谁对我说
“我答应你，你不喜欢的我都不会去做，都听你的话……”
结果到了后来
你的反应却是
“你为什么要限制我啊？你这样把我绑死，我没有自由你知不知道啊？！”

当初
是谁对我说
“亲爱的，不要不跟我说话好不好？我宁愿你打我，也不要你不说话……”
结果到最后
我却听到
“打什么打啊？！不痛的啊？！……那是以前的事，我现在不喜欢你打我行不行啊！”

当初
是谁对我说
“我不喜欢你哭，如果哭了，我的肩膀在这里，绝对可靠！”
结果到了后来
你却对我说
“哭哭哭，你不觉得烦的吗？！你不烦我也觉得很烦啊！”

当初
是谁对我说
“亲爱的，有什么事情都告诉我吧，我不希望女朋友有什么心事身为男朋友的我却什么都不知道……”
结果呢
我却听到这样的话
“你知不知道你让我很压力啊？！我还有很多事要做的，不要烦我可以吗？！”

当初
是谁对我说
“有我在，不要害怕！我绝对不会让任何人欺负你！谁要是欺负你我跟他拼了！”
结果后来呢？
你看着的流氓朋友对我动手动脚
你却没有把他推开、没有保护我……
 
当初
是谁对我说
“我爱你，绝对不会让你受一点伤害……”
可是结果
在我难过想要抱紧你的时候
把我推倒在地上的人，是你……

当初
是谁对我说
“相信我，我绝对不会欺骗你！因为我爱你……”
可是现在
这么多曾说过的话、曾答应过的事
怎么全都变质了？ 

当初
是谁对我说
“你是我的最后一个了，我是你的啦！你怎么甩也甩不掉……”
结果
狠心把我甩开的那个人

却是你…… 

我不相信男生的话
是有原因的
当初的信誓旦旦
到最后会变得怎样？
伤得太深
却始终放不下你
是我愚昧？是我太爱你？
爱情往往会让女生变得很傻
明明知道
那些话不能相信
但还是会深陷得不能自拔
原因是：我爱你，所以我选择相信你……
那你对我的爱呢？
真的只是如此吗？
那么为什么
到了现在
我还是坚持相信
你有苦衷、你不是故意的、是我的错、是我不好……
为什么？？
T_T

20101128    12.27AM
 

早点回家

“我们都是 一个人加上另一个人的长相
时间的墙 从他们的手掌到我们的肩膀
流浪星光 代替着那么多眼神对我说话
早点回家……”

苏打绿
主唱青峰
一把独特的嗓子
唱出来的这一首歌
听起来格外温馨
歌曲里的信息
你接收到了吗？

20101120    12.07AM

伤。悲

早餐

看见一对对的情侣

让今天本来就不那么正常的我

变得多愁伤感起来

好与不好的回忆

统统涌上心头

想起刚刚与他认识

他对我的追求

他的温柔

他对我的溺爱

我从一开始的受宠若惊

到慢慢的开始接受

再到深深爱上

一切的一切都是甜美的

但到了后来

他慢慢的远离

到我慢慢的神经质

还有他慢慢的嫌弃

甚至到最后

我收到一封分手的信息

我还能记得

当时我浑身发冷

用一双颤抖的手

写着挽留的信息

一边写，心里就一直在淌血

那种过频临崩溃的感觉

到现在我都无法忘记

在我知道

自己患上忧郁症的开始

多么希望他能陪在我的身边

陪我度过

太迟了

我只是一个人

一个人面对这一切

虽然家人朋友都在

但那种感受、那种痛苦

他们无法帮我分担

我只有一个人

默默的承受

伤与悲

我撑得很累

讨厌一个人

一个人的时候

脑袋就会不听使唤的想

越想越多

痛苦的过去

都把整个脑袋给塞满

眼泪就会不停的掉

直到眼睛红红肿肿的

还不会善罢甘休

这一刻

看着手上的伤痕

脸上出现了两道泪痕

哭

让我醉～

20101114    4.41PM

Is This Me? Or What?

Sometimes I just feel that I can't fit into any groups
Am I wrong for trying to interact with everyone??
Am I being stupid to feel that "Oh, finally I'm one of you..."
I'm so tired of all these things
Being in a gang --> Feel awkward --> Start to get use to it --> DISAPPOINTMENT
Yea, I've learned my lesson
This time I'd already give my self some space in case I need to leave
But at this moment I still can't help to feel rejected and sad
Maybe I'm not being myself, I mean the true self
The original ME when I'm trying to socialize
I'm the one who don't like to talk that much
And yet I'm not acting the way I'm suppose to be
To be ME~
After crying...again
Guess that I'll have to search and explore the identity thingy again
After all, this is a stage for identity exploration right~
By the way, I need to keep myself in a low profile first I think
Just in case I got myself in identity diffusion
Yea, I'm going to keep quite for a period of time.....

20101111    11.44PM

Ratatouille

Ratatouille is a traditional French Provençal stewed vegetable dish, originated in Nice, Ratatouille niçoise is the full name for the dish. The dish is usually served as a side dish but it also can be served as a meal on its own. From the picture itself the dish is really tempting my appetite and I really wanna try to cook this dish.

                                                                          

^{There are actually many ways to cook the dish. I''m gonna share with you 4 recipes on how to cook Ratatouille.}

^{First recipe:}

Yield: Makes 6 servings

Preparation Time: 1:45 hours

Ingredients:

2 medium eggplants (about 2 1/2 pounds), peeled and cubed Salt 1/2 cup extra virgin olive oil 2 medium-size onions, chopped or sliced 3 ripe but firm tomatoes (about 1 pound), seeded and quartered

2 medium-size zucchini, peeled and thinly sliced 3 green bell peppers, seeded and cut into thin strips 1 garlic clove, crushed 2 tablespoons dried herbes de Provence, wrapped in cheesecloth Freshly ground black pepper to taste

1. Lay the eggplant cubes on some paper towels and sprinkle with salt. Leave them to drain of their bitter juices for 30 minutes then pat dry with paper towels.

2. In a large skillet or casserole, heat the olive oil over medium heat, then cook the onions until translucent, about 6 minutes, stirring occasionally. Add the eggplant, tomatoes, zucchini, peppers, and garlic and shake or stir gently. Add the herbes de Provence, season with salt and pepper, and stir to mix. Cover and simmer over a medium-low heat until much of the liquid is evaporated and the vegetables tender, about 45 minutes to 1 hour, stirring occasionally to prevent sticking. Strain away any remaining liquid and serve at room temperature with bread.

Variation:  In step 2, cook each vegetable one after the other, adding more olive oil when required, and mix all the vegetables once they are cooked.

Second recipe: (Traditional)

Ingredients:

• 1 medium sized onion, chopped
• 3 cloves garlic, minced
• 1 medium or large eggplant, diced
• 1 can stewed tomatoes
• 2 medium zucchini diced into large chunks
• add herbs as desired (try basil)
• olive oil (enough to sauté onion/garlic)
• salt and pepper to taste

Directions:

• Sauté the onion and garlic until tender
• Add eggplant and tomatoes, bring to simmer
• Simmer, covered for 15 minutes
• Add zucchini
• Simmer for 10-15 more minutes until vegetables are suitably soft
• Remove from heat
• Stir in the herbs, season to taste

Serve over:

• Rice
• Egg noodles
• Pasta
• Boiled, cubed potatoes

 Third Recipe: (Easy)

 Ingredients:

• 1/4 cup olive oil
• 2 onions, slivered
• 3 bell peppers, cut into one inch squares(try different colors)
• 2 eggplants, cut into 1/2 inch cubes
• 2 zucchini, cut into 1/2 inch cubes
• 4 cloves garlic, minced or crushed
• 2 pounds tomatoes, chopped
• 1 tablespoon minced fresh thyme
• salt and pepper
• 1/4 cup chopped fresh basil

Directions:

1. Heat olive oil in a heavy soup pot on medium heat. Sliver onions and add to oil.
2. While the onions cook, chop the bell peppers and add them to the pot, stirring well.
3. Chop the eggplants and add to the pot, stirring well to coat the eggplant with oil. At this point all the olive oil will have soaked into the eggplant, so you need to stir often to keep things from burning until they soften some.
4. Chop the zucchini and stir it in once the eggplant has softened a bit.
5. Chop the garlic and add to the vegetables, stirring well. 
6. Chop the tomatoes and add them.
7. Mince the thyme and add it along with salt and pepper to taste. Stir well and cook two minutes.
8. Turn down heat and cover the pot. Simmer until everything is soft and well blended - about 40 minutes.
9. Stir in basil and remove from heat.

Fourth recipe: (Classical Method)

Ingredients:

1.6 kg tomato [tomate]
700 g eggplant (2) [aubergine]
500 g zucchini (2) [courgette]
700 g bell pepper (2-3) [poivron]
1 kg onion [oignon]
6 cloves garlic [ail]
Herbes de Provence (basilic,thyme, parsley)
olive oil [huile d'olive]
salt, pepper [sel, poivre]
140 g tomato paste

Directions:

1. Cut the eggplant into rondelles; keep separate. Peel the zucchini, cut into rondelles, keep separate. Clean the bell pepper, cut into small strips, keep separate. Chop the onion, keep separate.

2. Peel, de-seed and drain the tomatoes (*)

3. Using four separate cooking pots, put some olive oil in the bottom; put in the eggplant, zucchini, pepper, and onion into their own pots; sprinkle some flour onto the eggplant and onto the zucchini. Put the four pots on to cook slowly. Each cooks for about 30 minutes, but test and cook each until correctly soft.

4. In a large cooking pot with a thick bottom, put in olive oil, chopped garlic, herbes de Provence. Squeeze the tomatoes in by hand. Cook slowly until you have a thick tomato sauce.

5. Add the four separately cooked vegetables to the tomato sauce, mix thoroughly and heat. Pour off the excess oil from the top. It's ready to serve. 

Yum yum...nice isn't it?? I'm so gonna try to cook this!! Ratatouille...Wait for me~!!!!

20101109    9.57PM

我就是我

别怀疑～

我一直以林晓彤的身份活着～

21年来都是如此～

爱哭的，是我～

爱笑的，是我～

小气的，是我～

敏感的，是我～

心软的，是我～

倔强的，是我～

懒懒的，是我～

爱美的，是我～

悲观的，是我～

情绪化的，是我～

忽冷忽热的，是我～

感情丰富的，是我～

爱讲道理的，是我～

........................

所有你在我身上看到的，都是我～

我就是这样～

这样真～

一点都不虚假～

我就是我～

千真万确、货真价实、如假包换～

信不信由你……

20101104    12.41AM

星期一の爆血管

一大清早

 收拾好心情

准备回金宝上课了

今天一大早

天灰灰的

像要下雨的感觉

望着窗外的天空

心情仿佛受到窗外的天色影响

灰灰的、要下雨的感觉

不以为意呗

想着也许到了学校见着了朋友们

就会 OK 的啦～

没想到当我一踏进房门

心情立刻大转变

我真的有那么好欺负吗？

不吭声不代表我不介意！

不讲你并不代表我不生气！

房间是两个人用的

你凭什么把我的位子也给霸占去啊？！

臭鞋子臭衣服统统丢在我的地方

你他妈的范围就空荡荡的

能自由出入！

我的范围就窄窄的

还有你的臭衣臭鞋！

只差没惹上苍蝇！
忍你一次又一次

等到我真的顶不顺、忍不下去的时候……
要我在房里跟你“划清界限”是不？
还是要我像狗狗一样
在房间的每个角落撒泡尿做记号
证明这是我的地盘？
气到～

血压顿时飙升、微血管也不懂爆了几根～

真他妈的气！

 唉……

回到家了

天气依然死灰

希望待会儿下场雨

今晚能有个好梦呗～

 

20101101    4.51pm