I'm Afraid Of A Little Girl.. You Kidding Me?!

Slacking during working hour..
Hahaha..
No boss no other colleagues =>> Parttehhhh Time!!

Am always worried about Wednesday class.
There's this very girl who is very... Hmmm... Spoilt??
She just won't listen every single time I asked her to sit down and do her work..
She'll fight with her friend (a boy, AND always will win), run around, disturb other friends of hers, talks a lot (I mean A LOT!!) etc etc...
No matter how nicely you talked to her she won't listen..
And no matter how you yelled/screamed/scolded her, she won't listen either...
At times when I'll just sit there, look at her, sighed and think:" What's actually with this girl? What should I do?"
Yes she's driving me crazy every single Wednesday evening when she comes...
You kidding me? A 4 year old girl makes me scared?
(Yea... Go ahead and laugh.. When you meet her you'll feel my fear @@)
I'm now preparing mentally to face the CHALLENGE for the later class..
Oh ya, and next time..
Next time if you're gonna send your kids to me, or perhaps to any other teacher in school or tuition center..
Make sure they behaved!!
If not you're just gonna waste your money, waste time (yours, theirs and the teachers'), and does harm to the teacher (might die faster or develop sudden heart attack)...
Parents!!! Educate your children!!! >.<

20121003   12.33PM

결국

Brings down my emotion whenever I listen to this song =')
I love how GD makes me feel~~

Here's the translated lyrics:

Love is painful although love is painful.
Repeating like a fool. That’s what I always do.
But pain is beautiful. It’s same as you.
Hope turns into disappointment. Wish turns into despair.
As love deepened, pain deepened more
Illusion or expectation that this time, it’ll be different, uh.
eventually, how many years have passed, there is no “forever”.
eventually, We’re not meant to be, become alone again.
barely, barely, barely, I thought I finally found my love.
eventually, eventually, It’s ended again like this.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back
I’m falling without you

Eventually whose fault is it. There’s no love.
Eventually I’m saying goodbye to you. Tired, I’m falling asleep.
barely barely barely, it seems like this is an end between us.
Eventually eventually, we’re becoming strangers.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well.
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back
I’m falling without you

Let’s go
I didn’t know at first. I liked the empty place which was hers.
After several days, at last I thanked her.
I didn’t know about myself
didn’t know about the confidence that I could live without you.
tomorrow which is different from today
1 year, 2 years. regret is getting deeper as much as the pain.
I pray everything will be changed as time goes
for you my baby.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back

I’m falling without you

20121002    1.43PM

Eyes Open

I like Taylor Swift's song --> Eyes Open..

There is these lines that sings

"Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping
Keep your eyes open"

How real..
Everybody's waiting to see you fail/fall..
To give comments..
To tease..
To discriminate..
To hate...
Hahaha.. Yet not all are negative...
We need to look at the bright side of the world as well..
This world ain't full of evils =D

But yes!!
Keep your eyes open..
Always be prepared =)

20121002    12.50PM

Some Thoughts

*PSSSSSP* *I'm blogging during working hour!!*
Muahahahahahaha...

In the middle of designing questions for my student when suddenly his popped into my head...
"Why do people always care too much?"
"Why do people unable to wipe off memories and let it turn into hatred, anger and revenge?"
"Is pride really more important than humanity?"
Well... I'm always a person with a lot of thoughts..
And these thoughts appear mostly because of the current crisis happening between X country and Y country now...
Whenever I saw news on TV it always brought me into deep thinking..
Polices were there to protect citizen's safety, security guards were there to make sure the place is safe and secure, but they were beaten up in the end, not by others but their own people, with same skin colour and same nationality.. Why??????????
Because of pride as what I'm sure...
That thing that they were fighting for is not the issue, the ISSUE is the nation's pride, which is the cause of loss of humanity...
Which causes hatred, anger, frustration, irrationality and revenge...
Which causes the appearance of the ugly, dark, evil side of human beings...
I do hope that this crisis could end peacefully...
There are still many who are innocents who do not wish to be harmed...
God bless..

20120919    11.35AM

My First Job

Now that I'm working I miss study life so much...
Working life is dull..
Dull in the sense that you wake up every morning, get ready to work, goes to work, waits for lunch, came back from lunch, waits for dismissal...
And it's a cycle that repeats itself day by day...
Duhhh...
BUT!!
The interesting part is, since I'm a course instructor (so called)...
I get to meet a lot of kids, adorable ones, shy ones, naughty ones, talkative ones etc etc..
All with different temperament..
Sometimes you get to laugh at their silly conversations with you (I mean they're kids right, sometimes things they said just doesn't make any sense)...LOL
Sometimes you can get heart attack coz they're just so naughty and uncontrollable...
Sometimes it's very touching when they appreciate things that you've done to them..
Yeah.. These are the parts that I like in my job..
You don't work because of work, work as if it's one part of your life which you enjoy...
If it's the opposite way... Then perhaps you need to think of another way out...
I remember this quote saying "When life gives you lemon, make it into lemonade"
I found sugar in my lemon, and I'm kinda enjoying my cup of lemonade...
Or perhaps it is the effect of "internal/external justification"...
Hehehe.. I don't know...
Maybe.. =D

20120918    12.56PM

It's been a very very very long time...
Since before I finished my FYP, after I graduated, when I'm in honeymoon mode and now that I started working...
Just too lazy to blog it seems.. Yesh.. "LAZY" is the word..
There are always a lot of stuffs in my mind that I just can't seems to voice out to anyone or anywhere..
Of course now that I'm happier, not to say I'm currently living a good and carefree life, but things don't bother me much and I don't get pissed real easily now..
Yeah.. That's the bright side of graduating not only from university, but also from a stage of social circle..
But sometimes there will still be a downfall where I starts to get emotional..
And this is the time where I found out that.. Friends whom I can really talk heart-to-heart with... Are very very limited..
The more I look at my insight, the more I see that I'm actually anti-social..
Not like does-not-make-friend kinda anti-social, but it's like if-no-one-finds-me-I'd-rather-be-alone kinda anti-social..
As I mentioned before I enjoy most of the time spent alone, with nobody, just me and myself..
It's more comfortable... Or should I say.. It's the MOST comfortable...

Since after I graduated.. The most frequent questions which I have to provide answers to everyone are as below:
1. What are you doing now? (Ukur tanah/ Goyang kaki)
2. When you plan to start work? (Soon...)
3. What job are you looking for? (...)
4. When to get a bf for yourself? (Not so soon..)
5. When you wanna get marry? (I bf also don't have...)
Kinda frustrated you have to answer to the same questions to everyone you meet..

For the last 2 questions..
What I wanna answer is actually :" If there is a guy for me, then it will be.. If not, I'm alright with it."
I won't hope for someone to take my hand or anything..
If it is meant to be, then it is meant to be..
If it is not meant to be, then let it be.. Geddit???

Hidden Truth

Saw this in 9gag that day and thought it was absolutely, exactly, precisely, thoroughly POSITIVE!!