Responsibility

I was sometimes not satisfied back then when I was studying..
You know.. Exams, assignments, group works...
Gave me headaches..

But now that I'm graduated and stepped into the world of work...
It's not what I thought it should be..
It just no that you goes to work, do as what you're told to, done, and leave..
You have to contribute 100% of your responsibility, sometimes more!!
Especially in the educational line, extra aware you have to be..

Everyday I have to monitor the students' progress..
Make sure they're disciplined..
Make sure they're learning and doing their work..
Make sure that parents are satisfied..
Honestly, I was still not used to this and it gave me severe headache @@
Especially the parents part..

To be frank some parents are ridiculously demanding, while they're the ones not contributing..
I wanna have a say here.. Now listen dear daddies and mommies..
Just don't think that you're paying the fees then you pass every job to us, they're your kids, YOU have the responsibilities to educate them as well..

Overall, if you wanna succeed in a career it comes with great responsibility..
Without any contribution you'll get nothing..
I was wrong about studying back then now I really miss study life.. (Sorry T^T)
But I'm gonna go ahead and adapt..
Perhaps I can create better future generation..
I know I can do it =)
Aza aza!!

20121108    1.43PM

Just Smile and Wave

Someone's waiting for you to breakdown..
Someone's waiting to see the fallout..
Keep your eyes open even when you're sleeping said Taylor Swift..

Well, I'd say "Just smile and wave" like the penguins sweetie ^^
Just smile and wave..

20121031    11.44PM

Ignorance Is Bliss

Ignorance is bliss...
True..
Recently I had been feeling indifferent with stuffs, either negative or positive..
I'm surprise actually..
Is it because of PMS?? Or I've gone crazy??
Hahahaha.. No idea...
But one thing that I know is that, when you stop clinging to things/events/people around you, you'll suffer less..
Especially to bad things that happens in life..
One recipe of finding happiness in ourselves is to stop clinging to the past isn't it?
If we keep thinking about things that happened it'll be hard for us to actually move forward..
For example, if we keep thinking about someone who betrayed us..
We'll only feel angry, frustrated, hate and sad..
Why torture ourselves with all those rubbish?
Be happy instead...

That day when my uncles got into a fight, me and my mom had to travel down to my grandparents' place coz my grandma nearly fainted...
I remember this neighbor of my grandma told us a story of hers:
There was this lady who started a fight with her and eventually slapped her..
She did not hated that lady, in fact she kept helping her after that..
That lady was so embarrassed and regret for what she did..

So, moral of the story..
When people act bad against us, we don't downgrade ourselves to act the same as they did..
Keep classy, just ignore --> forgive --> forget..
You'll be more happy  ^^

P/S: I know saying this is easy peasy, I feel the same way too.
Hahaha...
BUT!! Who knows what will happen in the future if I keep reminding myself right?
Good luck =)

20121023    12.40AM

Graduation ♥ Convocation

Breaking news!! Breaking news!!!!

I..am...officially... GRADUATED!!!

Wheeeeeeeeee~~~~

Today is indeed a happy day, with joy filling me up all day long ^^♥

I won't forget that mixed feeling of happiness and touch and gratitude that were in me when I received the scroll that marks the end of my 19 years of study life...

Once again I express my gratitude to my family...

Dad, mum and sis who accompanied me when I was trying to break through hardships that I faced all these while..

Without your supports I wouldn't have succeeded~

Thank you =') 

To that sponge who had always supported me..
Thank you ^^
Although it's halfway through my university life when I met you..
But I would say that it's the best thing that have ever happened ^^
정말 고마워요 ^^

To my best pal in uni....
The one who love Rilakkuma ^^
You're the only one whom I can commit my trust 100% in UTAR...
Seriously no kidding!!
I'm so glad to have you to talk to without needing to worried about anything at all...

너도 정말 고마워요 ^^♥
난 항상 당신을 기억합니다
약속 할게

Last but not least..

To each and everyone who had supported me, helped me, hated me or what-so-ever...
Hahaha..
THANKS!!!
Without you I wouldn't have done it!!
I wouldn't have learned and I wouldn't have be who I am today =)
Thousand.. Million thanks!!

감사합니다 ♥

All ready for the ceremony =)

After 3 frigging years, this is what I got.. An empty scroll @@ (Hahaha just joking, will get the cert tomorrow ^^)

Flowers from Coussie, Aunt and my butttt ^^ ♥

This is a total surprise!! Thanks Sponge!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Gathering with the Sponge after so long, still we never change ^^♥

And pretty Isabelle ^^

I'm happy!! All day long.. After I wakes up tomorrow all will be left as memories...

^^♥

20121021    10.27PM

Exercising

I was in the middle of exercising with my hoola hoop with my blogger on..
When suddenly "Oppan Gangnam Style" was played...
Hahahaha...
Changed the routine from hoola hoop to dance...
It was FUN!!!
There was this news saying that the Koreans had found out that by listening to this song it can reduce negative emotions and thus preventing depression...
Guess it works coz I feel happy... Like really happy while dancing to the song...
Hahahahaha... (Perhaps it's because I think I looked funny doing the horse dance xD)
You could try this as well, then tell me whether you feels good..
Let's do it together!!
"Ehhhhhh~ Sexxxy ladehh~~~" xDDDDDD

Have a nice day =)

20121012    10.58AM

Don't Judge

Came across this while scrolling down my facebook news feed..

It says:

"Don't look at me from your point of view, I'm afraid that you can't understand."

 Which means that, don't use your value to judge others, you might be wrong about somebody.

=)

20121009    5.05PM

Gangnam Style Heat

One song, one dance, rocks the whole world...
Yes, it's PSY's "Gangnam Style"...
People from different sides of the globe, different races, different cultures, who speak different languages...
Now they're dancing to this very song...
Even a 3 year old kid GOSH~~
That day when I was teaching, those kids heard this song playing in the other class...
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand there goes their concentration..
When it's break time they're all in that class dancing to the song..
LOL!! I was totally speechless...
Have to use playing that song as reinforcement afterwards so that they finish their homework fast..
AND IT WORKS!!!
Hahahahahahahahahaha.....

I'd only say~ PSY 오빠 잘한다!!
 진짜 대박!!!

This cat is CUUUUTE!! xD

Can't stop laughing at this.. ROFL!!!

Op~ Op~ Op~~ Oppan Gangnam Style!!

Oh and by the way, I like how the concept of "Dress Classy, Dance Cheesy" sounds.. =D
Let's dance!!! Woohooo!!
  
20121009    3.29PM

In Heaven

Omo~ This MV makes me cry each time I watch it..
Ji-Hyo unnie's acting is awesome!!

 Moral of the story:
Appreciate those who love you and those whom you loves...
Life has no take 2..
Once they're gone, they're gone..
So express your love and treat them right while you still have the chance..

Well.. Everyone knew this moral..
But the problem is, can everyone do it?
Can you?
=)

20121009    12.36PM

True Enough

Lol.. I dunno what to say when I saw this on 9gag..
I used to do the same thing..
But no more..
Coz no one will give a single f*** about what you've been through..
Those who really cares, are always there for you..
So ya.. =D

20121003 6.01PM

I Miss You *Spongebob*

Buddy?? Where are you??
It's been a long time since the last time I bragged about our friendship..
Hahaha...
I've been and am always so proud of our friendship..

Guess we're both busy with life..
I graduated, she's still in school..
I'm working now, she's studying...
And we're both doing fine so there are less complaint to each other I guess...
So... WE'VE NEVER TALK FOR A VERY LONG TIME ALREADY!!!
Hahaha...
But I'm glad she said she will pay me a visit during my convocation!!
Yes yes yes....
True friend won't change and won't forget even if you've lost contact for a long time..
I'm sure we won't =))))))
But I'm sure I'll have lack topic to share with you when I meet you.. Hahahahaha..
Well.. You know me..

I'm missing you..
Hope you're doing good and having great time..
안녕 =)

20121003    12.55PM

I'm Afraid Of A Little Girl.. You Kidding Me?!

Slacking during working hour..
Hahaha..
No boss no other colleagues =>> Parttehhhh Time!!

Am always worried about Wednesday class.
There's this very girl who is very... Hmmm... Spoilt??
She just won't listen every single time I asked her to sit down and do her work..
She'll fight with her friend (a boy, AND always will win), run around, disturb other friends of hers, talks a lot (I mean A LOT!!) etc etc...
No matter how nicely you talked to her she won't listen..
And no matter how you yelled/screamed/scolded her, she won't listen either...
At times when I'll just sit there, look at her, sighed and think:" What's actually with this girl? What should I do?"
Yes she's driving me crazy every single Wednesday evening when she comes...
You kidding me? A 4 year old girl makes me scared?
(Yea... Go ahead and laugh.. When you meet her you'll feel my fear @@)
I'm now preparing mentally to face the CHALLENGE for the later class..
Oh ya, and next time..
Next time if you're gonna send your kids to me, or perhaps to any other teacher in school or tuition center..
Make sure they behaved!!
If not you're just gonna waste your money, waste time (yours, theirs and the teachers'), and does harm to the teacher (might die faster or develop sudden heart attack)...
Parents!!! Educate your children!!! >.<

20121003   12.33PM

결국

Brings down my emotion whenever I listen to this song =')
I love how GD makes me feel~~

Here's the translated lyrics:

Love is painful although love is painful.
Repeating like a fool. That’s what I always do.
But pain is beautiful. It’s same as you.
Hope turns into disappointment. Wish turns into despair.
As love deepened, pain deepened more
Illusion or expectation that this time, it’ll be different, uh.
eventually, how many years have passed, there is no “forever”.
eventually, We’re not meant to be, become alone again.
barely, barely, barely, I thought I finally found my love.
eventually, eventually, It’s ended again like this.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back
I’m falling without you

Eventually whose fault is it. There’s no love.
Eventually I’m saying goodbye to you. Tired, I’m falling asleep.
barely barely barely, it seems like this is an end between us.
Eventually eventually, we’re becoming strangers.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well.
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back
I’m falling without you

Let’s go
I didn’t know at first. I liked the empty place which was hers.
After several days, at last I thanked her.
I didn’t know about myself
didn’t know about the confidence that I could live without you.
tomorrow which is different from today
1 year, 2 years. regret is getting deeper as much as the pain.
I pray everything will be changed as time goes
for you my baby.

My mind is not changed from the very first
but my mind is now full of wounds cuz of you
Cuz of your cold voice, I’m changing, I’m getting cold as well
It’s hard to get back, between you and me
we are drifting farther and farther apart from each other
It’s hard to go around each other
So I gave parting to you as a gift and turned my back

I’m falling without you

20121002    1.43PM

Eyes Open

I like Taylor Swift's song --> Eyes Open..

There is these lines that sings

"Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping
Keep your eyes open"

How real..
Everybody's waiting to see you fail/fall..
To give comments..
To tease..
To discriminate..
To hate...
Hahaha.. Yet not all are negative...
We need to look at the bright side of the world as well..
This world ain't full of evils =D

But yes!!
Keep your eyes open..
Always be prepared =)

20121002    12.50PM

Some Thoughts

*PSSSSSP* *I'm blogging during working hour!!*
Muahahahahahaha...

In the middle of designing questions for my student when suddenly his popped into my head...
"Why do people always care too much?"
"Why do people unable to wipe off memories and let it turn into hatred, anger and revenge?"
"Is pride really more important than humanity?"
Well... I'm always a person with a lot of thoughts..
And these thoughts appear mostly because of the current crisis happening between X country and Y country now...
Whenever I saw news on TV it always brought me into deep thinking..
Polices were there to protect citizen's safety, security guards were there to make sure the place is safe and secure, but they were beaten up in the end, not by others but their own people, with same skin colour and same nationality.. Why??????????
Because of pride as what I'm sure...
That thing that they were fighting for is not the issue, the ISSUE is the nation's pride, which is the cause of loss of humanity...
Which causes hatred, anger, frustration, irrationality and revenge...
Which causes the appearance of the ugly, dark, evil side of human beings...
I do hope that this crisis could end peacefully...
There are still many who are innocents who do not wish to be harmed...
God bless..

20120919    11.35AM

My First Job

Now that I'm working I miss study life so much...
Working life is dull..
Dull in the sense that you wake up every morning, get ready to work, goes to work, waits for lunch, came back from lunch, waits for dismissal...
And it's a cycle that repeats itself day by day...
Duhhh...
BUT!!
The interesting part is, since I'm a course instructor (so called)...
I get to meet a lot of kids, adorable ones, shy ones, naughty ones, talkative ones etc etc..
All with different temperament..
Sometimes you get to laugh at their silly conversations with you (I mean they're kids right, sometimes things they said just doesn't make any sense)...LOL
Sometimes you can get heart attack coz they're just so naughty and uncontrollable...
Sometimes it's very touching when they appreciate things that you've done to them..
Yeah.. These are the parts that I like in my job..
You don't work because of work, work as if it's one part of your life which you enjoy...
If it's the opposite way... Then perhaps you need to think of another way out...
I remember this quote saying "When life gives you lemon, make it into lemonade"
I found sugar in my lemon, and I'm kinda enjoying my cup of lemonade...
Or perhaps it is the effect of "internal/external justification"...
Hehehe.. I don't know...
Maybe.. =D

20120918    12.56PM

It's been a very very very long time...
Since before I finished my FYP, after I graduated, when I'm in honeymoon mode and now that I started working...
Just too lazy to blog it seems.. Yesh.. "LAZY" is the word..
There are always a lot of stuffs in my mind that I just can't seems to voice out to anyone or anywhere..
Of course now that I'm happier, not to say I'm currently living a good and carefree life, but things don't bother me much and I don't get pissed real easily now..
Yeah.. That's the bright side of graduating not only from university, but also from a stage of social circle..
But sometimes there will still be a downfall where I starts to get emotional..
And this is the time where I found out that.. Friends whom I can really talk heart-to-heart with... Are very very limited..
The more I look at my insight, the more I see that I'm actually anti-social..
Not like does-not-make-friend kinda anti-social, but it's like if-no-one-finds-me-I'd-rather-be-alone kinda anti-social..
As I mentioned before I enjoy most of the time spent alone, with nobody, just me and myself..
It's more comfortable... Or should I say.. It's the MOST comfortable...

Since after I graduated.. The most frequent questions which I have to provide answers to everyone are as below:
1. What are you doing now? (Ukur tanah/ Goyang kaki)
2. When you plan to start work? (Soon...)
3. What job are you looking for? (...)
4. When to get a bf for yourself? (Not so soon..)
5. When you wanna get marry? (I bf also don't have...)
Kinda frustrated you have to answer to the same questions to everyone you meet..

For the last 2 questions..
What I wanna answer is actually :" If there is a guy for me, then it will be.. If not, I'm alright with it."
I won't hope for someone to take my hand or anything..
If it is meant to be, then it is meant to be..
If it is not meant to be, then let it be.. Geddit???

Hidden Truth

Saw this in 9gag that day and thought it was absolutely, exactly, precisely, thoroughly POSITIVE!!

None Of Your Business

It's so true..
I mean the body is not yours, why should you insult/point at/comment on that body?
You can always encourage but not insult...
It's not your life, why should you "gepoh"/"sampat"/mess with other people's life?
Go!! Get a life!!!
Other people's business are totally none of your business..
How they look, what's their achievement, how's slim/fat they are their own business...
If you can't control your own mouth or if you can't maintain a life of yourself then stay the hell outta other people's life...
Period.

20120605 11.51AM

The Truth Is............

Yeaaaaaaaa.....
I like to stalk these pictures on Facebook very much..
Probably because they speak the truth and catch many people's heart...
I don't really speak to anyone, but when I do speaks meaning that I trusted that person I'm speaking to...
But very few of them actually qualified..
I don't simply trust (<-- conditioned).. Hehehe..
When people ask me am I okay I'll just say "I'm fine"..
But it's rare that the same person who concerned will further ask "Are you sure you're fine?"..
Saw this on a newly added friend's album..

The truth is..
I'm Fucked up, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional...
So when I say "I'm fine", doesn't really mean that I'm fine...
I just don't wanna tell you that I'm not ok...


20120531    1.21PM

Long Lasting Friendship Recipe

Erhem... Actually figured this out myself..

Just a little small "recipe" for a long-lasting friendship..

I was in Sarawak for my graduation trip with a couple of friends..

Or cliques I should address them...

Thing went a little wild on the second day..

You see, I went berserk when I was awaken and had no enough sleep the night before..

Was extremely tired the next day and was in real bad mood..

Been moody the whole day, and of course emotional..

All I see was the dark side of those people...

I'm such person when in bad mood, I will complain a lot, but at the same time blame myself for being so sensitive...

Guess I was conditioned to be that way..

And of course, til the end of the day the guilt was all over me..

Kept thinking what actually went wrong...

Felt extremely awful that day, not only because of the emotional but also the extreme tiredness of the body..

The next day I had my mind cleared and I figured out this little secret to keep a relationship/friendship/whatever-ship last long...

When you're a friend to some others you can't always look at their dark side..

The more you dig their bad the more you'll feel awful, disgusted or annoyed...

The more negative you feel, the worse your emotion will be..

And such emotions will influence how others react to you...

Maybe that's how "Self-fulfilling Prophecy" worked...

Hahaha...

But anyhow, if you really want the "ship" to last long...

Try to accept that everyone has got their bad and good...

And try to focus more on their good..

Think about how they had made you happy before, how they had helped you and be nice to you...

That will help you cherish the relationship more..

But bear in mind, people do not only have you as a friend..

At the same time, they've got friend's' too in the other circle of their life...

Which means that, being nice only to you or be always nice to you is not a necessity..

They have their bad times as well...

So, if you really do cherish some people in your life you can always use this little secret recipe...

If you don't then forget about it ^^

Good day...

20120530    11.27PM

Let It Burnnnnnnn

Was cleaning up my room the other day...

There it is, laying still, knowing that I wouldn't open it, or touch the things inside it...

But it was wrong...

I wanna clean up this mess in me...

Stop feeling sorry for myself and miss him every single time I sees him/sees the stuffs that he gifted me...

So I let them burn...

No more "I love you/You love me"
Bye~

20120529    1.46AM

Randomzzzzz

Currently in Sarawak..
Vacation of course.. Taking break after a long journey of study life..
I like this place..
Natural, beautiful, peaceful, calm...
When I was in the plane I kept imagining how my vacation will be?
How the place will be?
Will it be cool?
Will it be as fun as what I expect?
Am I able to wipe off all the unhappiness during this trip?
Lotssssssssssssss of questions appeared..
But turns out, you just need to relax..
And accept what's coming..
If you're unable to catch up, slow down the pace and look around..
You could find something really interesting that will catch your attention..
That's what I actually did..
And I'm loving what I found..
Should just keep doing this :)
Peace..

20120520 10.50PM

My Favourite Chillax Place

Guess where???
It's Starbucks of course ^^
And the new branch has just opened today... I mean yesterday at AEON Station 18 Ipoh..
My barista friends invited me there...
I immediately fall in love with that place..
Really nice and comfy, the air-cond is colder !! XD
It'll be a perfect spot to hang out, enjoy a cup of coffee and read a book in the afternoon..
I Heart Starbucks Coffee ❤

20120516 1.59AM